Christmas it was...

The annual block party routine I could remember, was a relapse which most people are having from 2007. Wasn't exactly the kind where people would sit to be reminded of the so-called insightful year they had. Supposedly where people would gather to be giving and receiving, mingling, gossips subsided til late at night, drinking on wine and eggnog, lovers under mistletoe. That's just what we always have in mind.
There's always a reason why people can't wait for Christmas, and it has little to do with family reunions, or curling up with a cup of eggnog or that unexpected kiss beneath the mistletoe, much receiving a present from that special someone. No, people look forward to Christmas because they know, it's time for miracles.

Someday, somehow..

Some days, the whole world seems upside down. And then somehow, and probably, and when you least expect it, the whole world rights itself again.

Fear is what everyone has. We're scared as hell as to want somebody. It may not be enough for them, but we don't want them to date anyone else except us. That's it, except that we're afraid, but here we are, still wanting them anyway. But, fear means we have something to lose, right? Then we don't want to lose them.

I think, it's better to have someone, even if it hurts. Even if it's the most painful thing you've done, even if it's the most painful thing you had to do. I still think it's better to have someone.

Crinckle my nose

It's sad, that we always want something which we can't get.

I keep it to myself.

I've seen and looked at u many times around. We even shared minimal secrets in the dark. We are friends. Tick tock and here we are, still. The difference? Me.
This time when I looked at you, there was something new. How could I be so blind. Though we're only friends, I don't know when the feeling changed within my heart. I don't want to push you away, I'll keep it to myself.

Too late.

There's too many 'what if(s)'. I just don't know where to begin. More like can't.

All I know is that, I feel as though I'm missing a complete stranger. How do I let go of this rope?

Come back to me

Trust is a major fragile thing. Once earn, it afford us tremendous freedom. But once trust is lost, it can be impossible to recover.

But of course, the truth is, we never know who we can trust. Those we're closest to can betray us. And then total strangers comes to our rescue.

In the end, most people decide to trust only themselves. It really is the simplest way to keep from getting burned.

Yet..again..

I'm just...not in the mood..screw fate.