I'm not alone, I wish I was. 'Cause I'd known that I was down. I wish there was an over-the-counter-test for loneliness, for loneliness like this. Something's missing, and I don't know how to fix it. Something's missing, and I know what it is, but, I don't know how to fix it.

Maybe?

Maybe I'm afraid of the way I love you?
Maybe I'm amazed at how you pulled me out of time, and hung me on the line.
Maybe I'm really amazed at the way I really need you?
Maybe I'm a boy, a lonely boy, who's in the middle of something that he does not understand.
Maybe I'm a boy and maybe you're the only one who could ever help me,
Won't you help me understand?
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you use to be with me all the time?
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I leave you.

...maybe I'm truly amazed at how I really need you, and the way I love you...

All i need was words and actions to make it through the day...

I miss you..

Honest questions

I am opening up like a flower, to the rain now...

Do you know the silent sorrows of a never ending journey through the pain?
Do you see a brighter day for me? Another day? A day?
Do you know the story from the start?
And do you know me?
Do you wonder what's in store for me? The cure for me? The way?
Do you see the whisper in my heart against your kidness? My eternal blindness? Do you see?

Look down and see the tears that I've cried, the lives I've lived, the deaths I've died.
Would you die them too, and all for me?

The moon got lost again.

...I surrender everything,
to feel the chance to live again.

A thousand dreams I still believe,
but I can't make you give them all to me. I surrender...

Every night, it's getting longer.
And this pain is getting stronger.
I swallow my pride, and not be alive.
Can't you hear my call?
I surrender...

Right here, right now.
I give my life to live again.
I wanna break free...please take me.
My everything, I'll surrender all to you...

News is sad.

He heard the most absurd news. And I've tried...tried to hide it as much. I'm falling deeper into shithole. And grabbing on anything is the most possible thing ever. He asked why I didnt tell. I kept quiet. I'm sorry...

I guess somewhere deep inside, I miss him, and likes him. But to no ground I'm standing, I'm just finding a comfort zone. Something to lean on, something I guess I could just grab. I'm screwing up. I thought a decision made was a way for me to pick my life up from where it got screwed, but to no avail. I am sorry...

Pieces of my heart...

Can't you just be a partner for once?
Can't you just let me lean on you for once?

Words to make me okay...
Actions to make me feel good..

You just don't...

Have you ever?

The feeling of how you're always wanting something so badly, but it doesnt turn out ur way, sucks. Preferable as much, I wouldn't want anything. But as humans, we tend to ask. And when we ask, God gives it. And when we got it, we're always never satisfied.
We can't correct human mistakes, never. From what I'm experiencing myself, habits die hard. We tend to cause more repulsion than any explosions known to man kind. But, what happened when one turn scared, to let out his feelings? We can only open our big brown eyes, and let things passes by. It always seems easy to let it out. but not anymore when you've been in a situation where letting it out, was a mistake u made, pointed out by that someone.
So what can I do? Sit down..and hope, where all hopes have failed.